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Posted by Fonda Feeling
This sucks. Seriously. I hate having to do this. But I simply cannot drive an hour everywhere I go anymore. I live all of 3-4 miles away from wherever I go, but it STILL takes me an hour to get there.
It wasn’t such a big deal when my job was nearby, when my friends were nearby, when I had SOME practice time here. I work in Cambridge, my practice space is in Somerville, and all of my friends are too. There is no reason for me to live in JP anymore and I hate that. I love my neighborhood, my apartment is great, my roommates are great… but the time and money for commuting is just too much. I get so anxious driving in traffic, and it can take anywhere from 15 minutes-over an hour to get to work. That’s kind of obscene, don’t you think?
I’ve been offered a room in a pretty sweet location in Central square.
Pros:
-Large room, two closets
-Large pretty much everything
-Awesome roommates guaranteed
-In the middle of Central, which is so convenient for both work and practice
-Low-maintenance roommates
Cons:
-No pets (I’d need to back out of the foster I’m currently in the middle of getting)
-Moving again
-The top end of what I can afford rent-wise
-Having to find a new roommate for this place
-Leaving an already great living situation
I have so many reasons to leave, but some good reasons to stay. I JUST settled in, but after just a month of the commute I’m already burnt out.
I’d feel like a jerk, though.
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